There’s a ghazal in Jagjit Singh’s album “Saher”. I love this song. The lyrics have so much meaning in them. I use to listen when she went away from my life. The song captured my emotion perfectly that time.
I was lonely before she came into my life. But I never realized the loneliness and it did not hurt me so much. But after she left, the loneliness became more evident. The feeling became more painful. Someone once said that you know the value of something/someone after it has gone from your life. I agree.
I was always been a loner all my life. I went on from being a loner to being together and back to being a loner again. But now I am aware what I have been missing all these years. The fact all that I am missing is still a dreams makes this feeling very painful.
The song reminds me of lost love.
Tere Baare mein jab socha nahi tha
Mein tanha tha magar itna nahi tha
Teri tasveer se karta tha baatein
Mere kamre mein aaina nahi tha
Tere Baare mein socha nahi tha
Samundar ne mujhe pyasa he rakha
Mein jab sahra mein tha, pyasa nahi tha
Manane rootne ke khel mein hum
Beechad jayenge yeh socha nahi tha
Suna hai band karli usne aankhen
Kahi raaton se woh soya nahi tha