Its been two years since I came here. Last year, I wondered how many days I would stay here. This year, I still ask the same question. Life has changed. I had never in my life stayed away from home, from my family for so long. Then again to think of it, I have just moved from one home to another, from my family to my other family.
I was never close to my relatives, never from my Mother‘s side and definitely never from my Father‘s side. The only people close to me was my family and my friends. In fact my friends were the only one who I was close to but had no blood relation with. It was a surprise that I could gel with the family here in Amsterdam, far away from home, with no blood-relation and not even from the same city. A lot has changed in the last two years. The laid back attitude of Amsterdam has become a part of me.
Two years ago, I had trouble switching from a fast paced life to a real slow life by my standard. It was difficult to switch from 14 hours working day to 8 hours working day. There was a time when my life revolved around work. I had killed my hobbies if there were any. I would read a lot earlier. Work had changed that. This time I would have trouble adjusting to the fast paced Mumbai life. In this two years, a lot has changed. I may not be the same person who I used to be. Its true! Life changes you a lot. I have new friends here.
Some in India have moved on. I have lost in touch with a lot of them. Hopefully they will forgive. I landed in Amsterdam with less working hours and nothing as a hobby. The earlier days were different. I was coming in terms with being independent. It means more responsibility too. Two years now, I am finally taking a vacation in December. I will seeIndia after a gap of more than two years, Meet all friends, and meet the people I have spent my whole life with.
Somehow there is a sense of fear in going back. I don’t know what. It feels like life is going to change and take a new turn. For better or worse, only time will tell. The fear of the unknown scares me a lot but then after a point I would stop thinking about it.
But then again life has become too smooth. Its time for the Not Normal!