Last night I could not sleep. I retired to bed at around midnight but sleep was hard to come by. I tossed and turned on the bed. In addition Chintu, the mouse roaming in the house was making a lot of noise. I finally decided to give it a name. I don’t know if it’s a he or she.I haven’t had major problem with the mouse but yesterday night, it hoped on my bed, moed in the boxes and created a lot of ruckus. But Chintu was the not the only reason for my insomnia. I have learned to ignore him/her.Till 1:30 AM, it was just tossing and turning on the bed. Finally I got up and worked on the laptop for some time. Saw another episode of “Friends”.
I don’t know why I was not able to sleep. It was not like I was disturbed or sad or angry. No emotions but my eyes remained open. I had to tire myself to sleep which I did after 3:00 AM. I was not worried about anything. There was no uneasy feeling. It could be just one of the days when you just can’t sleep.
Coincidently my tarot bhavishya (prediction) for the day was
Understand the difference between loneliness & aloneness. Loneliness is a negative state when you are missing somebody, while aloneness is a positive state where you enjoy being with yourself
Spiritual guidance: Each of us must develop the capacity to make our way through the darkness without any companions, maps or guide
So, am I lonely or Alone? I guess a combination of both.