20 things about me. When Bhole tagged me almost 7 days ago, I never thought it could be difficult. 7 days to just think about 20 things about myself. I don’t even know myself yet! Much about me is said in my blog, but still…..Most of the things below were quite a revelation to me. It was the first time; I was admitting some of this to even myself.
I do believe in God as the ultimate power but haven’t been to any worshipping place for quite a long time. I have not prayed since a long, long time. I am not proud of it but still! The last time I went to a temple was, I think 3-4 years back. I say worship place because religion does not matter to me while praying.
I use to eat a lot of eggs till standard 7th. After I had my appendix removed, I have been allergic to eggs. I cannot eat eggs in pure form or something like that. I cannot eat more than one piece of cake in a birthday party even though I love cakes. So do not have eggs for food when you call me for lunch/dinner/breakfast/snacks.
I will carry a lot of other people’s secrets to my grave. The opposite cannot be said true. I am selfish in sharing my emotions even to my closest friend. What I write here is more than I have talked with anybody. The fact that even my friends don’t know that I write, makes all who are reading this, a privileged few who might know me more than others.
I am crazy about electronic gadgets. I would like to have the latest laptop, the latest music system, the latest DVD Player and the best this and the latest that. I don’t buy them because all these gadgets cost money which I don’t have much to waste but put me in a shop filled with electronics and I could spend lots of time there
I am crazy about movies. I can watch any type of movie; I mean any type of movie, thriller, action, romance, drama, horror, art etc. I am open to watch foreign language movie if they have subtitles. I have more than 100 English movies DVDs and more than 50 Hindi DVDs. I am currently behind schedules to complete all the movies. There was a time when I could identify a movie by looking at one scene. My friend use to switch channels and keep the movie for few moments and I could name most of them and that includes English movies and even Mithun da’s movies. Actually Mithun’s movies are the best comedies Indian film industry has ever produced. I must say, I am fascinated about movies.
I can cook decent and of course I can eat food. Never realized that I was foodie till a few years back and never realized that I could cook a year back. Can make decent meal and enjoy having people for lunch or dinner. Actually I think I enjoy having people praising me for my food. So if I invite you for food, be sure to praise me.
Short, Dark and Ugly
That’s how I describe myself. Was extremely self-conscious when I was small about my looks that held me to go beyond my normal studies as a child. I doubt if anybody from my school friends remember me. Now when I have grown up, I have become short, dark, ugly, balding and fat (this is getting worse man) but 9 out of 10 times I just ignore the comments and then one time I feel bad, I realize that a handsome man is of no importance without me. I make him look good. Then I ignore that comment too.
I don’t have long-term plans, personally or professionally. I realize and know that it is bad but I have never planned things on a long term basis. I am not sure what I am going to do next month, how I am going to decide what I will do after a year. Most of the things in my life have happened suddenly. Maybe some action in the past triggered them but I think they were never planned, right from education, job, love and a lot more things. I don’t think I will have long term plans any time.
Three events changed the way I was living. My attempt to be an entrepreneur at the age of 24, my falling in love at the age of 26 and my father’s death 3 years back. The first two events left me alone and hurt by the people I trusted most. The last event took away one of the person who I had loved all my life.
I am insecure about my relationship with my friends and family. I am afraid that they will be angry with me and leave me or something. I get super tensed when I have fights with anyone from my family or friends
I am scarred of ghosts and unnatural even though I am fully aware that they do not exist or do they? I have spent many a sleepless night fighting the demons in my mind. I never watch scary movie if I am alone at night. Although I am a lonely person and has always been, I am scarred to be alone. I am more scarred to die alone. My biggest nightmare is dying alone slowly when I am alone in the house. The thought itself is so scary that it scares me to even think of it for the fear that it may become true. I am scarred to lose those people I love.
I fell in love at the age of 26. I had no teenage crush and no teenage romance. I fell in love with a former colleague of mine who worked with me 2 years before I joined my present company. Although she married now and we did not have a formal breakup, the time when we were in love were the most beautiful and memorable time of my life. Those were the best days of my life to-date. It took me a long time to come out of the relationship and was the most painful time of my life.
Work is my biggest escape route from my problems. When I cannot think of any solution for my problems, I work twice as hard making myself busy so that I don’t have to even think about the problem. Though I eagerly wait for my holidays, I get bored of the holidays after some time. The only big vacation I took during my six years working was a month of holiday, 2 years back.
I am a night animal. No! I don’t like to party all night but I can stay awake the whole night. During my school days, I could study the whole night. Even in my present job, I enjoyed doing the graveyard shift. I use to do the night shift twice a month or so. I like the quite and calm of the night. I like to spend the night with myself. In Amsterdam too, I spent the whole Friday and Saturday night watching movies, surfing, writing etc
I have a small circle of very close friends. I have rarely lost a friend, I mean very rare that a friend has broken all ties with me. Even those who have drifted apart because of professional or personal reason have kept in touch somehow and I value their friendship.
Jack of all trades
Yes! I am a jack of all trades and a master of none. Know a little of everything and I think I use it at my advantage quite often.
I don’t have any. I believe that everybody has some good and some bad points. Take the good and adapt them to your life and ignore the bad.
I don’t have a favorite hero but my favorite heroine is Juhi and I just like her for her laughter, not her smile but her laughter. She can laugh whole heartily and it’s a warm laughter. Not mocking, not irritating, not loud, just a “dil kholke hasi”. A laughter you feel happy to hear. Some day I hope, I marry a girl like Juhi who can make me happy just by laughing.
I have taken many decision based on instinct with a little help of logical reasoning. This has helped me a lot of times and put me trouble many times.
Have my own self-healing and self-protecting, surviving techniques when hurt, sad, frustrated, tired. Most of the time, this processes involves me and only me and very rarely friends or nowadays something like this blog.
By the way, Just touched 200 with this post. It’s a double century and almost 2 years of blogging.