‘SU’ and ‘KI’ had been together for 7 years before they broke up. They still remained friends but they cease to exist as a couple. As long as I know them they were always a couple. After breaking up too, they use to meet and talk and do what a normal couple will do. I did not understand the very concept of breaking up. Life went on and ‘KI’ had to go to another town for a job. He missed ‘SU’ and ‘SU’ missed ‘KI’. Now ‘KI’ has found a job for her in the same town. She is not ready to go. Her life here is not so great. I see this as a missing of a great opportunity for being together. She does not listen.
‘C’ and “J’ got married last year. It hasn’t been a year yet and their marriage is far from being happy. Both of them live together because maybe due to family pressure.
‘S’ and “M’ have been college friends. Sometimes last year they realized that they had feelings for each other. ‘M” left for US sometimes last week. On the day of her flight, they had a big fight. It was not their first fight. Now both are far away from home and ‘S’ mails me that everything is a good as over.
SU-KI, C-J and S-M appear faceless people but all of them are my friends. I get sad and frustrated by them. I try to convince ‘SU’ to join ‘KI’, I try to convince ‘C’ and ‘J” to have more understanding and I hope ‘S’ and ‘M” stop fighting. But it does not happen and I guess that is what relationships are, imperfect. Those who have someone don’t realize what they have until they had lost them and someone like me clings to my old memories and refuse to let go. I know everything is over and I know she will not come back, but the memories appear sweet. It took me a while to accept it but yes I have accepted that she will not be a part of my life.
I though the life and love of all these people does not affect me in any way, but it does and has always been because they are my friends and because I don’t want to see them lonely and sad. It took her to make me realize what loneliness actually means. It took her to make me realize what is the importance of having someone to share your life. I don’t want them to be in my position trying to be busy so that they forget everything and trying to have a life. I don’t think they realize how difficult it is to make a new start and how difficult it will be to accept a new person in their life again. How difficult it would be to move on.
How difficult it will be to just be normal again?