The mails are trickling to drops nowadays. I remember when I came to Amsterdam, the mails were like floods. More than I could reply. Now three months down the line, they rarely come. I refresh and I refresh. But it seems everybody is busy.
Got a mail from Chetan today. Chetan and I have known each other for more than a decade now. We went to the same college and were colleague in the same company. Then he left the job and joined another company. It did not separate us as we lived in close quarters to each other. Today again after almost four years we are in the same company.
He is worried lot. He is worried about the future, his girl friend and what not. He was worried when we were in college. He would worry about the future. He would worry that he did not have a girl friend. Nowadays he worries he has one.
When we were in college, he used to crib about the life he had. How his life would not be as great. A kind of grass is always greener on the other side. He would always say to me “Now I am going to end my life!! Bahut ho gaya!!!” and stuff like that. And I would say that I will wait for that day. I am still waiting.
That was then and now is well, now. But it doesn’t feel like much has changed now. Well I could not blame him entirely as the circumstances were against him most of the time. I think it is his bad karma. Something like peechle janam ka paap. But instead of fighting the odds or just thinking straight, he would blame everyone and everything near him. Yesterday I got a mail from him telling me how life has become difficult and how his girlfriend is not with him. Mostly it was about his girlfriend. She stays in another city. And then a long chain of mails of me trying to explain how life is not fair all the time etc. Each mail of his was more depressing than the other.
I had completely lost hope when his last mail of the day was a happy one. His girlfriend called and they talked and both felt good after talking to each other. It made me wonder, how small events in life change the way you live. How a small phone call can make or break your day. How irrelevant things in your life can spice your day. I remember I had the worse day feeling lonely and sad when a complete irrelevant, illogical mail from Vaibhav put a smile on my face. (Read my last blog)
But Chetan lives the opposite way. He tends to ignore the smaller joys of life waiting for the bigger happiness, which might never come. I don’t know. I too sometime tend to do that. But I feel that we should smile when life gives us the opportunities.
Never know when we will get a chance to laugh again, to enjoy life to the fullest.